Today Is The First Day

Am I anything you wanted or a careless caress
That you've placed upon my shoulders in a time of such duress
I am feeling rather shaken as my thoughts begin to stir
And my bones are busy breaking as I dive in head first

This is love? I ask rhetorical at best
You're a hypocrite with passion, and I'm feeling so much less
If you'll consider everything I've done as a mistake
I'll consider never calling you out on being fake

Today is the first day I've never been alive
I'm feeling so real now that I'm dying in your eyes
It's a heartbreak on fire, a mistake with a liar
And I'm losing the only thing I've ever won

I'm taking my regret with me to the grave
If I ever take a breath, it's the one I take away
From your hollow soul that's got me shaking at the knee
I'm drowning myself away with sorrow and whiskey

Today is the first day I'm leaving you behind
I'm feeling so at home now that I've lost my mind
It's a heartbreak on fire, a mistake with a liar
And I'm losing the only thing I've ever won

This fog blinds the world from the shadow I have cast
I am lowering expectations as I rise up the mast
Of the ship I am on setting sail upon the sea
Set a course due west so the sun can fall with me

Today is the first day I've never been alive
I feel so real now that I'm dying in your eyes
It's a heartbreak on fire, a mistake with a liar
Yes a heartbreak on fire, a mistake with a liar, my neck hung with wire
Oh I'm losing the only thing I've ever won

Those Aren't Sparkles, They're Reflections Of Light Upon Glossy Eyes

I'm in love with you, she lied
This regret has burrowed deeply and ceases to relent

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You live in a world of such regret
I cannot believe you haven't pushed it off on someone else yet
A vision of hypocrisy and you're the only one subscribed
To all the burning bridges and the beds in which you lie

With Great Power Comes Great Tranquility

Your care is just a handicap that confines the way I move
I'd rather fall apart than fall in love with you
The essence of back to the basics spills forth from shed tear
It's the tranquility that's getting me to disappear
There's no forgiveness on my lips so quite searching for an answer
In every single kiss you'll find that you are just a cancer
Breeding within, only purpose to destroy
I imagine you're so smooth because you're sick of being coy

It's here that I've been looking for
A little piece of mind and piece of breaking heart
You're everything I wanted
Forgive me from the start
I will love without restriction
Blessed be your conviction
To the truth I have kept away from you

Sorry, This Scene Is Closed

I'm the worst of all of us and yet the center of attention
I've led my followers astray more times then I care to mention
And while you're treading lightly yet playing the blame game to a "t"
I'm getting sick of these medications not doing shit for me

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I've been dreaming of meeting you at your bedroom window with a ladder and a kiss
Holding a boom-box over my head can say anything but nothing quite like this

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She was only good for breaking hearts
She made breaking hearts look so good.

November Rain

There's something in the way you move
I can't keep my mind off of you
Your baby blue eyes, like diamonds and skies
There's something in the way you move
They say beauty is in the eye of the beholder
The world must look ugly ever since your heart grew colder
And since the return of the lovers you've earned
You've never been of the same self-esteem

Girl I'm jealous, not of what you have become,
But of what you've destroyed along the way

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When did life become so real?
When did you become the one who decides the way I feel?
Your lack of self-control is rather detrimental
To the causes you're affecting with your hips
The fine print on your heart reads "to love or die"
So why am I at the bottom of that list?

I'm laying myself out in the open and you're the coroner
You interpret every heartbeat as a meaning every scar a story every cut another sign
With the precision that you cut me down I'm lucky to be alive.