The Adventure of Frank

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I'm ditching blogger for wordpress.

I hope you all will still check it.

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It should be glorious.

The Mirror Just Laughs

Don't look back, don't reminisce
Over every single kiss
Give it time before you give in
She is nothing but a curse and I have suffered worse
But I've never learned my lesson
High heels, black dress
They're my weakness
While you're inching down my spine

I don't know you, I won't pretend to, I don't know anything at all
I don't know you, but look who's laughing now

Don't forgive, don't forget
Just soak in this regret
Shrug it off before they notice
If you can accept all my lies, why not as easily my goodbyes
At best you're serendipitous, fictitious, you're pathetic
Short skirt, real mess
You're my weakness
While you're walking on the line

I don't love you, I won't pretend to, I can't feel anything at all

It Was Only A Kiss

I want you to rest inside my head

Gnawing at my conscience

Until I forget what was wrong in the first place

Whoever said forgive and forget got the order incorrect

My memory is failing me and allowing you to come back

And I'll be okay with it

At first

Until I remember the reason I gave up on your sorry ass

I'll walk a thousand miles

And fly a thousand more

To worlds you could only imagine

Every second passing by I'll take the double-edged sword

Of relief and regret

And enjoy it cutting through me

How could it have ended up like this?

I thought I'd found someone to rely on

But I guess I'll trade up

I mean

It was only a kiss [of death]

All The Words In My Mouth

I've been broken to the core

Easily forgiven over time

And if I am seeming backwards

Know it's only in your mind

Cuz I am dropping heavy words

That have begun breaking through your bones

You have failed to realize that despite my tongue's deceit

I'm as bitter as you are alone

I don't know what I'm headed for (a breakdown, a breakdown)

Keep telling myself I want you more (let's lay down let's lay down)

Heavy sighs turn to light-hearted lies (you're fake now, you're fake now)

Keeping me awake at night (a breakdown, a breakdown)

So let's lay down all of our cards

And I'll be your king of hearts

You'll be the queen and do the same disappearing act

You've always done

To everyone before and after

The silence brings forth laughter

Also pity, disgust, remorse, and you're stuck in this loathsome cycle

Again and again and again

California In Sweet Hypocrisy

I want to be sober
Not somber
Ecstatic
Not static
Forgiving
Not for giving up
Somewhere
Not here
I want to be inspired
The way my heart used to be
When I'd sit before you
And tell you anything that was on my mind
That had caused me to rot for the day
And in spilling it upon these blank canvases
Would buy me hours of survival
Wondering when the next crash would come
And I wouldn't be near pen or paper
To release these caged demons
That hide behind forlorn eyes
Neither hazel nor blue
They sit like hollow pits
And dart around the room
As if expecting you to walk in
And I'd let these ideas build up
Until I'd fallen in love
Not with a person
An idea
And once the person is attached to this idea
The words pour like waterfalls from my fingertips
Beckoning your lips to talk fast
And your hips to walk away faster
But I don't care how this affects you
I'm only worried about how long it'll take me to recover
So while I pretend we were lovers
You won't even have a clue
That this is about you

Helpless

The words came from your lips
Like a jigsaw
Like a buzzsaw
A puzzle I could not figure out
And cut through skin and bone
Your words weigh more than the silence
Yet say less
The cat has stolen your tongue
And holds on for dear life
Praying that when you release
The truth pours from you
Like tears from eyes
But it is never that easy
No
Your beauty is confined in literary devices
Held up in consciousness
You have stolen my heart
With a breath
And a revelation

Life's Coming Up

Oh how the wind does blow through hair of youth

A gentle breeze that pushes us to bloom

Instead we all sit ever complacent

Wondering when time is all but spent

I will take this whisper across my cheek

Turn it to actions where words cannot speak

Finally something I can accomplish

Without fear of destroying those I love

This will be the first step to a new me

Be prepared for the outcome and you'll see

Something that's never stood before you here

While I fade away, my self will appear

And in the absence that my soul creates

(This soul I have yet to find or replace)

Will lead to a thousand paths to choose from

I will choose and ride off to set sun

You Wouldn't Believe All The Things I Have Done

I don't understand what it means to be a:

   Man

   Friend

   Love

   Success

I know what it means to be a:

   Child

   Fool

   Embarrassment

   Failure

Lord have mercy upon my soul

I am nowhere near where I should be

Instead I've faked my way for so long

I don't remember what it's like to be real

Please forgive me

A Day For Me

I have never told the truth

In these past three years

I have bottled it all inside

Giving everyone the version they want to hear

The one they want to know me as

I currently sit on the precipice of the moment in my life

Where I decide who I want to be

And take full accountability

For my actions

I have never been more terrified

After I've been digging my grave for so long
I can't remember what it's like to build something

Trust will be shattered

Like mirrors in hallways

I have stumbled upon and into

Realizing the face that looks back at me

Is no longer recognizable

And instead

Is a face I've grown to hate

And yet it spreads

Like a disease

I am not yet prepared for the task

I do not know how this story ends

Which is why I stall so feverishly

Once I begin my story

Like a waterfall I will give in

Caving in to the fears

Allowing myself to be open and vulnerable

That's where the terror comes in

Preparing for my downfall

That's the hardest part