Today Is The First Day

Am I anything you wanted or a careless caress
That you've placed upon my shoulders in a time of such duress
I am feeling rather shaken as my thoughts begin to stir
And my bones are busy breaking as I dive in head first

This is love? I ask rhetorical at best
You're a hypocrite with passion, and I'm feeling so much less
If you'll consider everything I've done as a mistake
I'll consider never calling you out on being fake

Today is the first day I've never been alive
I'm feeling so real now that I'm dying in your eyes
It's a heartbreak on fire, a mistake with a liar
And I'm losing the only thing I've ever won

I'm taking my regret with me to the grave
If I ever take a breath, it's the one I take away
From your hollow soul that's got me shaking at the knee
I'm drowning myself away with sorrow and whiskey

Today is the first day I'm leaving you behind
I'm feeling so at home now that I've lost my mind
It's a heartbreak on fire, a mistake with a liar
And I'm losing the only thing I've ever won

This fog blinds the world from the shadow I have cast
I am lowering expectations as I rise up the mast
Of the ship I am on setting sail upon the sea
Set a course due west so the sun can fall with me

Today is the first day I've never been alive
I feel so real now that I'm dying in your eyes
It's a heartbreak on fire, a mistake with a liar
Yes a heartbreak on fire, a mistake with a liar, my neck hung with wire
Oh I'm losing the only thing I've ever won