I Thought I Was Part Of Something More

Where do I start?

I have attempted to remedy the only part of my body

That aches every second

In a balance between what I should do to save myself

And what I should do to please everyone else

No matter which road I take

I am failing someone

I took a breath of fresh air this morning

Hoping it would hold me over

Until tomorrow

Instead I clammed up

Forgot my way back home

Got lost taking a step to the front door

Stop

Back up for a second

I forgot my keys

Not the ones to an automobile

The one to your heart

I haven't misplaced it

I never had possession of it to begin with

Pretending to have ownership over someone

Gives me a sense of well-being

And makes me believe in the world again

Until tomorrow

When I wake up to find the days have passed

And you are no closer to me

Then the first day we met

I'll convince myself otherwise

If love is so pure

Why am I so fickle?

I will fall for one after another

And while you may come and go

Right at the end of our encounters

I'll take a breath

And hold that

Until tomorrow