Simplicity

I am staring at this page
Waiting for answers to lift off
And explain my life for me
Every breath and hesitation
Is as telling as any word
A metaphor for the life I live
It's vicious how conniving I can be
Mirrors give me a second look
To make sure I'm real
You can't hear it
But every word written down
Is a battle within my body
Brain versus heart
Which side gets to tell its story?
The winner begrudgingly jots down every utterance
In hope the loser learns next time
But alas, the war continues
In act one I'm the conquering hero
Act two, I've become the dashing lead
Act three
Well I'm no longer there
I've written myself out
I'm falling apart quicker than you could ever imagine
And there you are
Cheering me on from the sidelines
I'm trading my soul for these words
And while the page continues to grow with words
I continue to grow eternally blank
And this page becomes me