I Don't Know What This Is

Allow me to introduce to you a man of a thousand dreams (it's me)
You think that you're so beautiful, and that everyone looks at you the way I said I did
But maybe that was just a lie to get you in the bed
So you look at me and say I've never been one to give
Looking at me from atop your pedestal, how do you remember what it feels like to be a friend?
You think I cry out in pain from just a simple paper cut
But you haven't seen me with broken jaw or broken heart
So you can proceed to get away from me, but you haven't seen anything yet
And I cannot remember a time in my life when I haven't been controlled by drugs and alcohol
Every single pill they've given to me, these drugs have become my therapy
And I'll keep self-inducing medication upon myself until I drug my way to Hell

This whiskey holds my memories so I can not forget
After every single blackout and every cigarette
The alcohol comes in floods and helps me drown
I'll burn this place to the ground, I'll burn it down

After every time we meet you hold another piece of me
and you think you got me where you want me
But you are so fragile dear, you are so fickle here
You haven't even seen me at my worst
You cannot comprehend my life as you've seen it
I would rather walk a mile in your shoes
Than another fucking inch in mine.

This fifth of vodka is helping me forget
Every single memory tied to every regret
I hope this alcohol will solve my problems now
or else I'll burn this place to the ground, I'll burn you down
I'll burn this place to the ground
I'll burn it down