On A Side Note

You have reopened my eyes to the world.
It's not often someone spits out my feelings upon a page.
My emotions read like a dreary case report.
Your version gives me hope in two ways.
One
I am not alone in my loneliness.
Two
You are far more brave than I will ever be.
While you spill out how you feel about whom
I sit here hidden behind turn of the phrase and double meanings
It's cowardice mixed with elegance
Genius mixed with embarrassment
Shame with glory.
I wish there was a way to come out of the woodwork
If this would work, I would have a new place to throw ideas at
That would open up doors to emotional breakthroughs
And breakdowns.
Both of which I love.
There's no way I can say this except hidden.
You're out there.
I'm stuck in here.
Reaching out to me was the most anyone's done in a while
And you barely even did it.
I'm not asking you to be my savior
I'm not putting my fate in your hands
My world on your shoulders.
Just my name on your tongue
It's bitter
But so are you
It's pessimistic narcissism at its finest
This puzzle isn't impossible
I hope to hear from you.