This Bottle Knows No Witnesses

How many times can something happen over and over again
Until I realize I am just insane?
I will dream about you leaving me and relish in the pain

I know the moment I fell apart, it's written on my calendar
Marked it with a heart and watched it burst in flames
I'll never look at you the same

My conscious is acidic, a promise left unsaid
I've taken all the blame and passed it on
This is not forgiveness, darling, it's denial
I've never hated myself more just to make you smile